If I did not have time to get to it then it obviously wasn't that important.
Is procrastination "guilt" what arises when we are letting other down. perceived or otherwise, then?
Because if it matterd to us, we would do it?
In other words, we are who we want to be, but pretend to wish we were better so others won't think we are satisfied with our mediocracy?
(my 7th grade teacher stuck me with these thoughts and have always wondered what others believe)
Geez Oscar, you're all over the place here. But I'm going to assume you're serious.
About 8 years ago I got really sick and was hospitalized. In this day and age I was in no danger, they gave me painkillers and an IV and my body fought it off, though by the time I got to the hospital I think they said later my kidneys were shutting down. But weird thing, if it had been 100 years ago they would have gathered around the bed and prayed and we would have found out if I could fight off an attack on my liver. Afterwards I pondered that old thought, if I die tomorrow, or 5 minutes from now, is what I'm doing right now the best thing I could do? I found this thought ultimately to be distracting and paralyzing, because there is always something more "worthy" of being done than what I'm doing now. I replaced the question with one that rang more true with me: is what I'm doing right now:
1) Good for somebody else?
2) Good for me? (put your own mask on before that of a child)
I will still get pangs of guilt around something I know I should have done. Who doesn't? They go away after I do it.
I do believe that several of the world's major religions (not all, as some may think) began with a mystic attempting to liberate people from impossible obligations (eg, many family's impossible expectations of Christmas) that usually served a small elite very well but made their victims miserable. Then of course a religion grows up after the mystic is gone that makes new impossible obligations, but that's another story. Buddha called it "the veil of illusion" that keeps you imprisoned, Jesus said "my burden is light" and other stuff. Reading the best sources we have on the mystics themselves I find very illuminating and liberating.
So, ask a weird question, get a weird answer!